The expression “burning the candle at both ends” has been on my mind.
Looking around at my home, my neighbourhood, my country and even my social media feed, I see people doing. Some seem tired, weary and fed up. Others seem fresh, optimistic and smashing through every day. But I wonder how many are taking time to rest? Like, properly rest, recharge and refresh.
It’s been 10 (is it 10? I’ve kinda lost count) weeks of lockdown and throughout, I’ve been aware how crushing this time can be. There’s been moments of joy and celebration and wonderful community, but it’s been a slog as well. It’s taken its toll.
And it dawns on me that right now, my “candle” is short. I don’t have long before I’m out of fuel. I get exhausted easily. It takes a while for me to feel at capacity again. I was like this before, but lockdown has knocked it out of me more.
It’s easy to beat myself up for all the things I’m not doing, but realistically, it’s a lot for me to get up, take basic care of myself, connect with the outside world, show up for my loved ones, get chores done, even write an Instagram post. And I’m learning that it’s alright to go at my pace, to slow down, to be gentler, to space things out in a way that I can manage.
I’m burning the candle, yes. But I’m burning a lot brighter.
I’m tired, yes. But I’m able to rest and carry on the next day.
I’ve been knocked down, yes. But it’s far easier to get back up again.
I had bad sleep last week but I held on through. I thought about why. I reached out. I experimented with routine. I used the 4-6am slot that I seemed to be constantly awake for to reminisce and enjoy a Pixar movie wrapped up in a blanket.
If you’re weary, it’s okay to stop. No job or task or pressure should be more important than taking care of yourself when you need to. You cannot burn at both ends forever. Be kind to yourself. Reach out. You’re not alone. 🔵
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